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Ive just got to say this. I don't know how long this will be but yeah. Its like a vent/good news thing
so ive been having trouble, with friends, school work and health. Crying myself to sleep just wishing I wasn't who I was. Not in the sense I don't love my life. I'm surrounded by literally amazing people, they all care and are just great humans. I just didn't want to be me, just hurting. Crying myself to sleep over a friendship that went wack over nothing but assumptions, over being surrounded by my class who left me out, over the kind of human I am. I always have a problem and I feel bad about it.
As for my health? I keep getting sick over and over again. And its never happened to me before. I just finished having tonsillitis and now I have something else... idek what
but through all this... though ive been hurting ive had the best care. ^u^
this person I know has just helped so much. I didn't think it was ever possible. They made me feel comfortable in my own skin, amazing. They've tried to help with the friend situation because both me and the other person involved are awkward about it. This person has just been there for me, late at night, in the mornings, school. They're the person I go to, do my best not to lie to, when I'm afraid to speak with anyone else.
and then last night and today
little things
I stayed home from school unfortunately since ive become more sick
but
but though that is the case I feel great.
this person is still taking care of me
along with my mum
I won a raffle from my favourite artist on here and I couldn't stop smiling about it during skype. The art was just so amazing and wow thank you so much for it. you did well with the character design. I love it.
my bf had got roses for me during the school event, ^u^ I bet they were beautiful but I was unable to attend to receive them but I still hadn't expected him to get them, hes amazing
then I got a letter from a man whom I made cake for (his wife died a while ago and he had planned to have his bday at home) to say thank you, ive never gottn a letter before. It was so sweet.
and then I checked Feralfront, its a site ive had an account on since I was like idk, 9 or 10
I got a reply from an old friend from 3 years ago... I hadn't expected it and again I was smiling just thinking oml oml oml
And the sunrises have been beautiful. And I just feel great even though my body isnt
Thank you all
so ive been having trouble, with friends, school work and health. Crying myself to sleep just wishing I wasn't who I was. Not in the sense I don't love my life. I'm surrounded by literally amazing people, they all care and are just great humans. I just didn't want to be me, just hurting. Crying myself to sleep over a friendship that went wack over nothing but assumptions, over being surrounded by my class who left me out, over the kind of human I am. I always have a problem and I feel bad about it.
As for my health? I keep getting sick over and over again. And its never happened to me before. I just finished having tonsillitis and now I have something else... idek what
but through all this... though ive been hurting ive had the best care. ^u^
this person I know has just helped so much. I didn't think it was ever possible. They made me feel comfortable in my own skin, amazing. They've tried to help with the friend situation because both me and the other person involved are awkward about it. This person has just been there for me, late at night, in the mornings, school. They're the person I go to, do my best not to lie to, when I'm afraid to speak with anyone else.
and then last night and today
little things
I stayed home from school unfortunately since ive become more sick
but
but though that is the case I feel great.
this person is still taking care of me
along with my mum
I won a raffle from my favourite artist on here and I couldn't stop smiling about it during skype. The art was just so amazing and wow thank you so much for it. you did well with the character design. I love it.
my bf had got roses for me during the school event, ^u^ I bet they were beautiful but I was unable to attend to receive them but I still hadn't expected him to get them, hes amazing
then I got a letter from a man whom I made cake for (his wife died a while ago and he had planned to have his bday at home) to say thank you, ive never gottn a letter before. It was so sweet.
and then I checked Feralfront, its a site ive had an account on since I was like idk, 9 or 10
I got a reply from an old friend from 3 years ago... I hadn't expected it and again I was smiling just thinking oml oml oml
And the sunrises have been beautiful. And I just feel great even though my body isnt
Thank you all
pits
idk what I want right now
I just cant draw
I want to but my motivation has gone out the window and theres no luster in it
I hate these times
I just get stuck in a pit where I way below productive and I'm still falling
like I'm giving up
but I don't want to at the same time
I try draw but my view is distorted and stick in a set where it all looks shitty
everything
shit
all of it
and I just can seem to do better but ive still got to try....
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You're amazing and if you cant see it yourself then get a better mirror, look closer, stare a little longer because I see something in you. They say every atom of our body was once part of a star. Its a crazy concept babe.. but I see it. Its stardust in your veins with every motion, every breath you take, every motive. You're a collection of constellations, tangled stars and nebula webs. Bear with me these poetic lines can be a bit confusing but they are the infusions of all the thoughts behind my eyes when I look at you. You're just so, so human. A complicated being, seeing this world in a perspective far from my own, feeling with senses, em
Doctor again!!
xD I'm sure I wont die but a swollen throat feels so weird
missing out on school which sucks cause we were doing impressionism in art and I found that I really loved that style. I wont be able to finish my painting now.
Promoting a raffle
HEYYYYYY ^u^
One of my favourite artist ever is holding a raffle
you should really have a go at it and check out their art.
Theyre very talented ^u^
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